1. |
burden
02:08
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you tell me how he pins you down
how his hands feel against your throat
wishing it were me
i feel like a joke
am I a burden to you
every move I make annoys you
I try to be everything that you want
But you don’t want it from me
She tries to push
I try to pull
It’s like a tug of war
I just wanna be yours
I tear myself open
And pour myself out
I’m tired of feeling alone
When you don’t love me back
Well you don’t love me back
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2. |
demons
02:42
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the walls are closing in on me
my heart it pounds, i barely breathe
hands are shaking, knees are quaking
my whole world falls apart on me
the gut wrenching pain in my stomach
the ringing in my ears reminds me what i covet
don’t know whats going on with me
don’t know whats messin’ with my brain
So fucking tired of writing every day
I don’t know if this will go away
my body’s burnin up, limbs are all seized up
i’m drifting away, sinking deeper in the sea
finally tired of laying in this bed
can’t close my eyes, i’m hearing footsteps,
feel it breathing down along my neck
i cant fall asleep with demons in my head
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3. |
fighting
03:43
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i lost you cause of the way that i am
i showed you the good side of me as long as i could
i lied to your face and told you that we would be okay
even though i don’t want to live no more
i fought my hardest with the other side of me
i lost the only the only thing that meant something
you were my only reason to succeed
it was only thing that i believed
you and i we are both just the same
i can not keep fighting everyday
i hoped that this would
be more real, that you’d stay
and I’m sorry that i’m not that way
i can’t keep holding to disarray
i’m moving forward almost everyday
it’s getting harder along all the way
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4. |
red
02:49
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I'm seeing red
I'm seeing red
I see the lies
that I was fed
I can't sleep
and I can't eat
cause of what
You said to me
every lie
you told me
every word
you didn’t mean
My blood it boils
My head it hurts
our love is spoiled
my stomach churns
Lied through your teeth
And to my face
the whiskey burns
i need a chase
I can hardly
even breathe
i can’t stand on
my own feet
Restless nights
Haunted me
the last 2 years
and now I see
What you meant
and how it went
What you did
and What you hid
So I'll stay
up another restless night
Just to hurt
just to hurt one more time
now i’m here
writing this all on my own
every night
i spend alone
i’m all alone
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5. |
by your side
02:57
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it’s like I’m drinking poison
you’re killing me from the inside
your words they sting
my skin it bleeds
and i know you’ll kill me
and I am afraid to die
but I just keep going
i just want to be
by your side
and i still call you
from time to time
but i don’t say much
i just want to hear
your voice
on the line
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6. |
stuck (spoken)
01:54
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i think it’s sad
that the cold water against my skin
reminds me of you
back when we’d share our showers
but now I stand in it alone
just trying to feel something
anything at all
to remind myself that I’m still alive
and that I am still breathing
because it’s been 2 years
of trying clear my head
2 years of drinking it away
2 years I can barely remember now
so now I try to take cold showers
and not think of you anymore
and now I try to not choke up when I hear your name
now I try not to fall apart when I see your face
2 years of trying to clean myself of guilt
2 years of reminding myself I’m not filth
but everyday has been a struggle for me
and you make it look so easy
is this what you wanted me to feel?
is this how badly you wanted to hurt me?
because to this day there’s no telling
if I’m gonna make it to the next sunrise
when i’m 8 stories high staring at the moonlight
i remind myself everyday
that he’s really better than me
because he treats you better then i ever could
apparently
and even with his cheap fucking car and weak ass beard
he’s still the reason i’m drinking these fucking beers
but i am stuck
yeah i’m still stuck
so now I take cold showers
And try not to think of you
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