1. |
friends
02:37
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Stumbling home from another drunken night
I'm smelling like whiskey and got in a fight
Cigarette smoke still hangs on my breath
And I hope when you see me that I'm still a mess
My friends they're all fun
They don't like to judge
But by the way that I drink and the songs that I sing
They all start to think, what the fuck is going on with me
And That last time I saw you
What you were saying to me
It's etched in my eyelids
Now I can't sleep
We were coking and joking
When our eyes wouldn't meet
We were laughing and smiling
When you looked up at me,
You said
"Write a song about this"
So that's exactly what I did
My friends they're all fun
They don't like to judge
But by the way that I drink and the songs that I scream
They all start to wonder, what the hell is going on with this mother fucker
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2. |
torn
02:34
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i swallow my pride
and i say it’s okay
i’m happy for you
things are better this way
but later each night
when i’m alone in my room
waves come crashing
and i still miss you
with tears on my lips
and pain in my heart
i try to breathe in
so i don’t fall apart
don’t know who i am
and i don’t know what i want
but baby please can you
just make it stop
and it’s happening again
it’s happening again
my hands start shaking
can’t you just cut them off
just another drink
and another drink
just whatever it takes
to make it all stop
now i’m on the floor
there’s blood on the walls
i left you a letter
but you tore it apart
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3. |
parts
03:17
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i lost my shit
you’re in his pocket
i wish i could turn around
and break his left eye socket
i was a dick
i never knew better
but whats done is done and now you think
that he’s real clever
endless months
of sleeping alone
i wish i could turn back time and
stay back home
a part of me loves you
a part of me hates you
a part of me fears you
a part of me needs you
i let you go
to watch you grow
but now i’ll never know if this
was meant for more
empty bottles
all on the floor
i wrote this song for you
as you closed the door
a part of me loves you
a part of me hates you
a part of me fears you
a part of me needs you
all of me needs you
and i guess
what i’m trying to say is
that I’ll never know if
things will be the same
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4. |
hold
02:04
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i woke up today
not a thought in my brain
years of drowning out the pain
i’ve been digging my grave
then i reached out for a line
but i could never hold on
waking up every day
they all feel the same
holding back my tears
i’ve been fighting for years
but i’m losing my grip
its getting harder to stay
my hands are callused and torn
I can’t take anymore
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5. |
realize
02:13
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your friends think I’m crazy
and mine think i’m dumb
or could it really be
that i fell in love
your friends think I’m a joke
they’ll all sit back and laugh
at the sad piece of shit
that they think I am
I struggle everyday
in every single way
I’m a mess of a man
I know that I am
so don’t let me know what he told you to get over me
so don’t tell me how he holds you its killing me
as a 15 year old boy
who was foolish and mad
i made some dumb choices
you deserve more than that
when i turned 19
you wanted to marry
but i enlisted in
the fucking military
now i’m 22
and i lost you
to a better man
one that really can
actually pay attention
and treat you real nice
something i took
some time to realize
so don’t let me know what he told you to get over me
so don’t tell me how he holds you it’s killing me
or what is it all just you ?
did you really mean,
all those “i love you”’s
you always told me?
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6. |
grind
02:50
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You start to fall apart
Your blood drips after dark
The voices in your head
Don't let you go to bed.
The Bags under your eyes
are all filled up with lies
You tell me you're okay
But who am I to say?
You grind your teeth
you don't get no sleep
You cannot cross the bridge
All you wanna do is leap
So lay your head down next to me
the scars along your wrists
are the ones i want to kiss
to tell you its okay
and I am here to stay
and my hands on your hips
is the only thing i wish
so maybe things would last
but now its in the past
i grind my teeth
i get no sleep
i cannot cross the bridge
all i want to do is leap
to end my misery
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7. |
toxic
01:54
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I have knots in my stomach
And a lump in my throat
It's like a burning fever
But my skin is so cold
Standing in the shower
For what seems like hours
In order to feel some sort of warmth
or something at all
I am a shitty writer
And a horrible lover
A terrible brother
And the worst type of friend
You told me I'm toxic
And you're probably right
You told me I drink too much
So I asked "Who gives a fuck?"
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